My Quit Smoking Journey Day 3

So, I have decided to quit smoking. Actually, I am on day 3 today. At 130am, it will officially be 72 hours since I have had any nicotine or smoke in my system. Its the point where all the nicotine is supposedly gone completely and I am no longer having physical withdrawals, but mental ones.

I was actually off work and that made it a little harder because I was not occupied doing something. We went to church today, and it was mostly calm and relaxing to sit inside. I did not think about smoking once while in there, although I did have some sort of panic attack. I was back to normal again after stepping outside for a few moments.

After church, we went and got a chai tea frapp to sip at the gypsy bazaar by the park. All the people smoking there made me want to smoke even more.

As I push on through the confusion, I realize that this is the first time in 17 years that I have gone this long without smoking, without being forced or pressured into it...I went 3 days while in the hospital, I also went a day once when I had no money, but 3 days..while I have money and can freely smoke as I choose? - That's different.

Why? While I'm not really that sure, It just is. I think because it means that I am consciously choosing not to smoke this time. I am not being forced..its just something I want to do. Like smoking in the first place, I just wanted to. Somehow, that makes it seem a little easier.

Anyhow, I am going to keep posting through my journey. I am sure there will be a lot to tell. Many ups and downs are coming, and many have already passed in the last three days, which feel like weeks....

BTW..There is a book I am reading..but, I am not going to talk about it just yet. Even though, it is the first book ever to have me nicotine free for 3 days so far, by choice!